Tuesday, December 08, 2009
all out to play me huh?
its has already been so long since i even felt better.
38.5 have lasted throughout the day,
whole body is aching, and my head felt like its splitting apart.
its the fever or have my body turned weaker?
i'm already not smart so dun have to burn till its all gone.
leave abit for me.
really wish someone could hit me hard in the head,
fainted is better then suffering right now.
i really have no more strength to fight it already.
i think i have really hit rock bottom today.
its just not the same anymore is it?
is it a count down timer? =x
Monday, December 07, 2009
monday blues?
i was okay at first but as the day goes on, it just got worst.
i just think that when 1 is so call not doing well,
almost anything could happen.
the word, the song, everything seems to surface today. weird.
dun think, its hard. the mind seems to have a mind of its own.=]
must hand to myself to have such good memory. ^^
to myself, i just wonder, y do i have to see "this" every trip.
i already regret on it, so its just normal to be rubbing on it?
i also wish to be like that, to get out of such a state.
its somethings which i cannot control.
Attn to me: this shall be the last time.
or u might just lose it all for gd.
rmb this.!!!!!
For those who are reading,
拼命的奢望
闷坏的胸口让我想大声的呐喊
我努力不放 你冷淡 你让分手 就这样
我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了 还是一天 计算着慌张
计程车上的音响 我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的 心脏
夜深了我怎么办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔
心放空了 寂寞 好了
坚强外表下 我脆弱 情人节开始失常
别人庆祝 我却很失落
秋天过了 冬天漫长
关于爱 感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦想
舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光
夜深了我怎么办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔
心放空了 寂寞 好了
寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜 伤多痛 都释放
夜深了我怎么办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔
没有你 心放空了 寂寞 好了
Saturday, December 05, 2009
to have written so much and deleting it.
i suppose there is still some consideration to wad i want to say.
but would there be anyone who understand.
but even if one does, its not making me feel any better.
things could be different right? regretted it dun i?
i can't say for sure if the choice was right thn.
there wasn't anyone to tell me wads right or wrong.
but it could be right, others dun have to, me alone will do.
but.. i dun like this, i'm not enjoying this at all.
when i'm like this, i tend to think.
i know i shouldn't be and i should have consider all this before.
kinda dumb to have nt done all this.
there is so many things going through my mind.
if this goes on, i might just go nuts
lastly,
NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE THAT. I'M NOT.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
went out for dinner with claris,boonee and junhe.
its has been like so long that we've meet.
maybe its just boonee that i didn't see in a long time.
other two is just that they didn't see me. haha.
boss seems to be doing well, he's driving!!
can't wait to go for it as well.
and how i miss those times we used to have.
as for the two ladies,
是越来越漂亮了啊。
真心话，真的。
to think back on myself.
seems like i'm one who is still the same old me.
seeing all the programme,
for the first time i wished attachment was first and now is back to sch.
so i can join in the fun. haii~.
Monday, November 30, 2009
阴天
学警出更还真是在不对的时候放映不对的东西。
说实在的， 那天使吊饰还真能钩起不少回忆。
想不到还会在看到它。
“说过的话就象泼出去的水是收不回的”
“如果容易放手就不会握那么旧”
我只能说，这场雨应该不会那么快停吧。
真的好吗？一场大雨如果加上雷电怎么好像对一个人落井下石，
有时事情就会是如此。
写着写着思想也乱了， 不知道想写什么。 就这样吧。晚安了。
我只想尽快离开这里和那鬼地方。=]
Friday, November 27, 2009
二零零九年十一月二十七日 雨天
不知道是因为天气的关系还是本身，原以为细雨的浪漫足见变成让人感伤的感觉。
或许是因为这雨不小吧。雨后必定是晴天，彩虹，人心情低落也会有走出后的晴天彩虹。
不过一切还是要看“雨”下多久。只能说，这长周末来的真是时候。
这几天我好像重新认识了我自己，对事情的认真和执著。不过还是要别人说的才准。
对自己的记忆力也很看好，不过都没记得学业需要的。
我很清楚知道至今从未把我想做的每一件事都包括另一个人，唯有她。
一直以来都是我想，很少有加别人，唯有一个让我想和她一起完成。
是成长了吗？还是会想到别人了？或者还是那幼稚的我的想法？
不过她不是我的那个她，可惜吧，想必这是必经的事吧，这也是没办法的事。
唯有等待彩虹。
可是问题就在，我自认后知后觉，可以说是反应迟钝，
只怕错过了天晴后那美丽的彩虹。
就这样吧。想不到别的了。
我决定了，这年读完就到奥洲去。=)
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
i wonder if i had miss out on horo bout this week being bad.
nowhere seems safe enuff.
got my leg injured on sun till i cut my hand today.
price to pay for not going to work over the past 2 days?
i didn't wan it, i never tried taking so many MC in a month.
that places just make me sick i suppose?.
small cut but i guess its pretty bad
since it never stop bleeding since i got it in morning.
if it was bigger, i think i would be gone already. =x
one more day, thn i can go back and rest.